i never meant to be a pain

so i guessed until you told me what you thoughtcause ive been trying to find the right course that...

Thu, 14 Feb 2013 01:20:00 -0500

so i guessed until you told me what you thought
cause ive been trying to find the right course that leads me to our home
and of course ill be sleeping all alone in my head-
theres just your frame against my bed sleeping or playing
but it seems like youre so balanced
and if you compare our heads maybe we arent so different
we both cant wait to leave
i think theyll come a day when i no longer bring a smile across your mouth but as of now these tears dont belong to us
i wish i could take away the bad feelings and turn you into something you think is worth it all because maybe if you agreed with what i believed youd realize how much better than me you are and then alone id be but i guess thats just alright as long as the smile you gave to me stays mine and the heart i gave you stays in your possession
push it to the side but just dont forget that its there
collecting dust and getting cold but fuck everything i stole
together right now we are and maybe thats how well stay dont throw my stupid heart away i promise to always do the same how many god damned songs will i write until i tell you how i truly feel losing you the only greater fear i hold close to my soul and these bones i try to refill them by drowning myself with self resentment and all the lover for you i fill in myself hoping itll reach one of our hearts but it goes straight to my head and makes me dizzy then i really start to drown sinking deep in you i close my eyes and hope you are too then we could lose our breath together and maybe be a thing again i love kissing your lips please dont make them form the words thatll make me lose it all how do i end this when i cant even bring my eyelids together for a long while while youre far away from me

and this smile is something i cant even believe inand i know that one day ill be leavingi need...

Sat, 26 Jan 2013 04:10:00 -0500

and this smile is something i cant even believe in
and i know that one day ill be leaving
i need someone that i can see myself with
and then you came in on a skate board
and i thought you were to die for
and now its been two years
and i hope you’ll never leave
cause i cant see me with any one else
and even if i wanted to
i cant seem to walk away
cause i know that i will hurt you
or maybe vice versa
we cant all be good enough
for a person like you
but i hope that i wont leave you
or at least that you wont let me go
and we dont like the same things
but we dont get into trouble
and my friends think that were perfect
and i cant help but believe them
the flow of a river
never ending and beautiful
was always something i want our love it be
and maybe we werent meant to be
but i think that you complete me
and life started when we first kissed
and i could never ever forget
the moment in my closet that
changed my life for the good
and you taught me what love was
but im still learning everyday
please forgive me cause im trying
and i know that neither of us are perfect
but baby this is all so worth it
and if you can just wait for me, wait for me
and if you can always want me
i swear ill do the same
and i promise to always be here
and i promise to always care
when life is too hard to bare
take my hand and we’ll figure it out